Please be my hero

And if the guilt is not enough
There comes the grief
I cannot shrug off
Too many if onlys
To get lost in
To drown in

The smiling faces surround
But the farce
The pretense
Which all seems so real
Refuses to pull me in
Why can't I believe

I wanted to be strong
Stronger than all this
To be able to move mountains
All for you

I don't want to drown
I don't want to wait
The things I knew
Have never seemed so far

For all the times where I
Was your friend
Was your strength
Gave in to you
Please just remember this now

This is dragging me down
I cannot pin point
The exact causes of this
This

For when I finally need
Need you to be there
To hold me together
For a while
For right now

Please make it all better
So my heart won't break