Not mine

You take me where
I've never been
Never have
I can't see the way before me
Can't see it
No matter how hard I struggle
You push
I can't move from here
From this place
With my feet so firmly planted
Not to leave
Not to go
Why now?
Why make me try?

Trying to help
Trying to solve
Help. Solve.
Trying to find
Trying to search for all the right answers
That I can't seem to ever find
Without someone else's help

You want to be the one
Who am I to say
What I want
Is what I want to hurt
You, my one true friend
But not my one true love

You sit there munching
On no-nut chocolate chips
Staring out
Gazing
Following the planes
Tracing a path through the sky
Waiting,
Waiting,
Waiting.
Are you waiting for me?
I wish you wouldn't.
There's something in the way
You stare
Seering through me
Pulling from inside
Grasping and tugging
It hurts

But I don't want to hurt you.